Sorry if I contributed to your agony in any way by featuring you on BlogHer. I thought your post was really well written and expressed your opinions about the game in a clear and comprehensive way. Why we feel free to attack others like sharks after blood when we don't agree with their opinions is one of the most troubling aspects of Internet life.
Haven’t Felt Like Writing About Gaming
Wait a second…aren’t I a writer whose job it is to write about gaming? I mean, why else would Gaming Angels hire me on other than for my sparkling personality? It’s true. It is my job. And to be honest, I haven’t felt like writing about gaming since my Mass Effect 3 review, and I can’t say that Mass Effect 3 and the controversy surrounding it hasn’t affected my motivation at all.
The amount of backlash surrounding the ME3 endings controversy has greatly soured how I feel about gaming and the gaming community. When the outrage happened less than a week after the game released, I felt like I was slapped in the face. Here I am, enjoying ME3 to my heart’s content and I can’t look at my Twitter feed at all without seeing people discuss how much they hate the endings or how much they hate the people who hate the endings or how much they hate Mass Effect and BioWare period. It was enough to make me hate all gamers everywhere. Even worse, it soured the rest of the experience I had while finishing up ME3. I held my breath all the way through my final days of playing it, waiting for the horrific apocalypse to happen and absolutely dreading what would happen next. Even though I loved the ending, every time I think back on ME3 or think of playing it again, all I can think of is the controversy.
Of course, I made matters worse by daring to voice my support for BioWare and their vision of Mass Effect by starting a support group on Facebook. I have never had to defend myself so much in my entire life, and that includes when I dared to admit on Twitter that I am indeed a conservative. I’ve never been called an idiot, a stupid bitch, or been accused of being in someone’s back pocket as much as I was during that first week of the group’s existence. Granted, I opened myself up for it, but I was appalled at how much poison was thrown my way. I have never been so close from packing it all in and walking away from the gaming community entirely, and that includes all gaming websites I work for. I’d have to shut down most of my Twitter. And I was almost fine with all of that just so I could game in peace.
I never ever thought I would say, “I don’t want to talk about Mass Effect anymore,” and that is where I am. I’ve started two posts in my head regarding different things about Mass Effect but scrapped them because I don’t want to talk about Mass Effect anymore. My hackles raise when I see any news headline with the words “Mass Effect” in them. So thank you, Internet, for utterly souring my absolute favorite series. That’s something that the developers are supposed to do, not gamers.
As a result, I’ve had little motivation to write about anything else gaming-related. I roll my eyes at my Twitter feed as all I see is constant negativity about gaming, games, and the gaming industry. People laughing about Sony’s poor Vita sales in Japan. People yelling how this company needs to do such-and-such. The console vs. iOS arguments. Media hates gamers. Gamers hate gamers. Gamers hate publishers. Developers don’t care about gamers.
If I wanted to be surrounded with this much negativity, I would still hang out with my sorority sisters.
The negativity in gaming culture comes in waves just like in any other community, but this time, it feels like it’s going on for so much longer than usual. I’ve never felt so beaten down before or so frustrated, not even when a reader told me I needed to die for not liking Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days or when I was told I was the worst writer EVARRRR. This too, shall pass, but ugh, it cannot come soon enough. I can’t wait to look forward to writing about games again.
I don't think it's just games and gamers that are hurting like this right now. There is a generally negativity running rampant throughout society and on the internet. I've seen more name calling, bashing, and just general hostility over ideas, opinions, and even the stupidest little memes than I have in a long while. I don't know what the catalyst is, and quite frankly I don't care. Several of my must read blogs have been so hostile and aggressive towards meta groups (some of which I consider myself a member of) that I had to stop reading them. And I miss them a lot. I felt like logging off of everything for quite a while. I even stopped writing on my own blog, I just can't seem to finish a post there. Even though I don't play ME3 I feel for you. I'm sorry this has been ruined for you. I do hope the climate changes soon and people can once again engage in rational discussion. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one oppressed by the rage.
Great post hon! I agree about the community right now. I think the PC petition recently just threw me over the edge. I'm trying to ignore it and find solace in other geeky hobbies I've been neglecting. Have a board game that is just waiting to be played with. Overall I hope this negativity period is over soon, but if not, I hope at least we can narrow down the community noise to just our readers who are made of awesome. ^_^
Virginia, I believe it's more the online gaming community than the Blog Her audience. They just seem so dissatisfied with everything lately and acting on that feeling. We're seeing more and more petitions and just general anger online. Just odd.